i don't know whether to blame the alcohol, the lack of exercise, or the food - well, i've been eating relatively healthily, i think.
something's been wrong with me the past few days, i keep freaking out and i feel like shit and headachey and it's almost like i'm in withdrawal. but from what?
last night was fun - went to the italian pub with old coworkers from tech support hell... hadn't seen those peeps in months so it was pretty nice. that place has like 200 beers and over 30 draughts, and i'm not overexaggerating here. their pesto ain't bad either (tho the lazaghana isn't that great, sez the boy).
so...
i got the job. actually, two jobs. i do clerical work for a visually impaired professor now, ten hours a week. my second job is to be, as a friend put it, a "science clown" for this educational-program-for-kids thing. i get to go to birthday parties and wear a lab coat and do experiments (like making slime). for an hour. for twenty bucks an hour, plus any upgrades/tip/travel, can apparently go up to $40 an hour. and i get to decide my hours.
when you think about it, my jobs are so friggin yin and yang man.. in one i'm all antisocial and boring, and in the other one i need to be on crack so i can keep up with the kids.
OMG I FINALLY GOT A JOB TOOK ME LONG ENOUGH FSADLKJSFDAKJSFAFJL
and i just couldn't settle for retail, eh.
gawd this post sounds like it's coming out of an LJ. i'm sorry.
while i'm randomly spewing about my life in an unamusing way, i might as well explain what my MSN name (from this post) means... some people (namely, my doc) think my clearthink period was hypomania. yeah. so.. which makes sense, but only to a certain degree. i've actually talked to a few people who have bipolar, and there are varying opinions on this. as for what i think... well yeah, it could very well be. i mean, there aren't any other psychological disorders out there that match some or most of these symptoms, for 4-7 days at a time. and well... what do i think about possibly being bipolar?
fuck if i know, man. all that really matters to me is if it comes back. i don't want it to, but at the same time i want it to so things can be studied/evaluated. i do know that i go through depressive phases, but i mean who our age doesn't?
(/end of mediocrity)
