april 10, 2003
I have been so HIGH - naturally, of course - for the past few days. No sleep (this is due to the non exercising thing) but still bursting with enough energy to scare my parents. Constant butterflies-in-my-stomach and thinking longingly about the same person. You know what really, really kicks ass? Eu-fuckin-phoria.
I had a tazo chai with soymilk today. And even though pumpkin pie lingered on my tongue in the most delicious of ways, I realized that spring is here and pumpkin pie really does deserve to be slated under the much appreciated season we call autumn. But it doesn't fit the here and now. Spring needs something sweet, not warm and cozy. Spring tastes of liberation, of refreshment, of a new beginning. Tazo chai's unfortunately don't offer any of that. They make you want to curl up into a ball and read a good book.
Today was gorgeous. I hadn't seen the sun in a while, nor had I seen a sky that blue for... ages. It was incredible. I could breathe in life, instead of darkness and the stench night brings. It had been so long that I'd breathed fresh air in a sunlit area, and let me tell you, when you haven't done it in a while, it becomes a somewhat spiritual experience, and as you may know, I don't have a spiritual bone in my body. Let's just say nothing can match that level of freshness at that hour of that sunny day, Wednesday, especially in the spring where the smells of mud, mud and more mud reign the good ol' olfactories. I was suprised at the amount of people walking about. I almost forgot that traffic existed. I live in one of the, if not THE most underpopulated countries in the world, but today I was shocked at how many people people people populate this "small" city, how many people need to get from place A to place B and in such rush.
Before I get started into some rant about finding beauty (it always happens to me when I occasionally see the sun) I will just say: for the first time in many, many months, I am very content. You could even say .. happy.
